Life ... Love ... Faithful... And ... You

Awhh... Hari ini begitu melelahkan bagi gue. Harusnya gue ke dokter nih meriksain mata, tapi canceled gitu deh. Tau, gue gak mau pusing soal dokter2an. Masa bodo. Huffhh... Sambil ngeblog nih gue nyari tugas PKN disuruh nyari norma2 yang berlaku di umum dan contoh2nya. males. kalo gue gak inget gurunya yang maenan nilai mah gue gak bakal mau disuruh bikin beginian. konyol bener.

Mending juga gue tiduran di atas kasur sambil nonton Ipin Upin dah. Lebih asiik daripada berkutat dengan undang2 bla bla ... beserta tetek bengeknya. Lama2 tete gue bengek beneran. Huhuu …
Gue kangen banget sama Ocii, Amie, Riri, Heru, Indah, Melinda, semuanya penghuni kelas 9-E dulu! Hooohhhoooh … Yang bisa bikin gue ngakak walau gue dalam keadaan down, patah hati berat dan sebagainya!! Gue butuh banget mereka buat nemenin gue dengan kekonyolan mereka!! Gue jd inget kata-kata mereka dulu.

Occi : “Udh deh, Nad, kita labrak aja si Sentull. Berani banget dia rebut laki lo!!”
Heru : (nyanyi dangdut) “Sekian lama …”
Amie : “Nad, ada bibirr!!”
Indah : “Duh, ngantuk …”
Fadly : “Ntar pas PM lo izinin gue, bilang aja gue sakit. Radang tenggorokan.”

Huahhh… Nyatanya gue kangen mereka!! Gue kangen kangen kangen banget. Gue pengen bisa berada lagi di antara anak-anak gila dan tolol itu. Memakai seragam putih biru dan badge Nusantara lagi. Gak papa. Gue kangen mereka. Sometimes just how mean they were when it has no .. proof, I missed them when they are not there anymore for me. but when they were there for me, I do not care.
Tired ... sleepy ... want to die ... essentially all!! Why did every day was so tiring? I miss my life is so relaxed and fun!! It's not like being chased these debt collectors! Bored with life, eager to go to heaven!!

Gue sedih deh, gara2 ketololan gue ngomongin “itu”, Bang Ganteng marah lagi sama gue kayaknya …  Dia gak bales2 SMS gue . Padahal awal2nya dia bls SMS gue masih ketawa2 gitu, tapi dia gak bales lagi. Dr semalem gue udh pancing2 pake SMS basa-basi tetep aja dia gak bales. Huhuh… Do not let him leave me again … Gue sayang banget sama dia


I miss him, miss the warmth of affection, tenderness of love, sweet smile, laughter that made me so love and admire him.
I always fall in love with each seeing eye.
Because I knew there was something of himself he makes me crazy about her.
He's got something that makes me so scared to lose. He's got something that I would die when he's not near me. He had a magnetism that makes me always on nearby.
He has a charm that makes me never stopped to think about, imagine and have it.
although he never gave me a chance to have him, I never stopped loving he. I never managed to stop loving him. I love her with everything I have though it was not me that he chose finally to cast him ...

might be when he noticed I was more than himr lover, he's just playing. Maybe he lied to me. I was too absorbed in his love. I'm a fool to think to love him. I loved that stupid best friend. I know I should not love him.