I do not know why, I feel so happy when this Harika SMS reply from me. oh, imagine, he replied only SMS, not invite me to accompany him play SMS ... he seems very busy. or maybe it was just an excuse to avoid. What kind of fools who want to serve a text message from imaginary friends like me?? actually I was afraid to say that I liked him, the problem is not as young as your mind. I like someone who might not be logical to me like. What I'm just getting carried away? What was I destined to be a secret admirer? I can only love and admire but not to be loved ... I especially have to feel for once in my life, is owned by someone who I want. and even ridiculous, I want to be owned by Harika ...
ini lagu favorit gue:
Oh, secret admirer
When you're around the autumn
Feels like summer
How come you're always messing
up the weather?
Just like you do to me....
My silly admirer
How come you never send me bouquet of flowers?
It's whole lot better than disturbing my slumber
If you keep knocking at my door
Last night in my sleep
I dreamt of you riding on my counting sheep
Oh how you're always bouncing
Oh you look so annoying
Dear handsome admirer
I always think that you're a very nice fellow
But suddenly you make me feel so mellow
Every time you say hello
And every time you look at me
I wish you vanish and disappear into the air
How come you keep on smiling?
Oh! You look so annoying.
My secret admirer
I never thought my heart could be so yearning
Please tell me now why you try to ignore me
'Cause I do miss you so
['cause I do miss you so...]
My silly admirer
['cause I do miss you so...]
My handsome admirer
['cause I do miss you so...]
Dear secret admirer
['cause I do miss you so...]
'Cause I do miss you so
[secret admirer - mocca]
as I write this post, I was in a state of wanting Harika. whether driven by a sense of what, so obviously I want to him and kissed him cheek and hugged him until there is no separation ever ... I could fall in love with him?? yes god, what stupid thing is? I fell in love with someone who does not even know me? This was stupid and embarrassing ... I was like hoping for a miracle. I could not restrain my love ... I was tormented by a sense of this ... why should a love that was so tortured and cut the heart?
I do not want to love him, but my heart continued to press and forced me to keep thinking and get it .... if only to get his name on menuis easy on paper ... may not be afraid as this feeling. I'm just afraid when I was so hoping to have a chance with him, I was disappointed because he could not I have ... I do not want anybody to know about me feeling this, I do not want to tell anyone sebenrnya though I need a friend to listen to my heart as an advisor, but I do not want others to know that I love someone who should not I love ... I do not even know who he was, how could I love her?? this is really beyond reason. why love must work in a way that I never expected? why is that? I want to understand.
serius, gue ngerasa jadi orang paling bodoh waktu gue jatuh cinta ... kalo gue bisa milih, gue milih ngosongin hati gue dan gak jatuh cinta sama siapa pun. karena tiap gue jatuh cinta, permasalahan yang sama selalu menghampiri gue: gue gak bisa dapetin dia, dan akhirnya gue kecewa lalu patah hati.
itu yang gue takutin ...
itu yang gue gak mau terjadi.
itu yang gue hindari ...
untuk itu gue menghindar jatuh cinta.
itu aja.
gue takut kecewa sama respon dia .
gue takut semuanya.
gue takut dia kecewa sama gue.
gue takut .
gue gak mau.
oke ?
ttg gue suka atau cinta sama dia, mungkin cukup gue yang ngerasain dan siapa orangnya, itu cukup gue yang tahu.
cukup gue.
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